I had Lasik surgery done on Friday.
They gave me a Valium right before the procedure (not due to my asking, but due to their protocol). I hadn't ingested a benzodiazepine in about 10 years. The effects were felt in a matter of minutes. It was that soft, hazy, artificial buzz that I had once enjoyed in the days when my nerves were really burnt from other drugs and alcohol. A dulling of the wits.
The fogginess of the Valium made me realize how much I cherish sharpness these days. Not only acuity of vision (which the surgery successfully achieved), but an acuity within all physical senses and faculties of the mind. Crisp clarity. Dexterous movement. The flow of pure bliss consciousness, unhindered by chemical baggage.
The procedure occurred very quickly—less than 10 minutes total. On the way out, they handed me a pair of polarized sunglasses and snapped a picture of me standing next to the surgeon. I stumbled out into the parking lot to meet my mom (my designated driver), then went home and took a very long nap.
Obviously, there is a vision of the eyes: the perception of the physical plane around us. But there is also a vision of the heart and mind, well beyond the immediacy of the surrounding environment. That kind of subtle vision also requires a clarity and deftness in order to function and move towards a chosen ideal. Without a strong vision infused with emotion and fervor, the physical features of life become quite dim and less navigable. Things lose their luster.
So, the parallel senses of inner and outer vision work perpetually in tandem.
On the note of vision, I wish that I didn't have to rely on any kind of surgery ever again. If only I was invincible, invulnerable. If only I could manifest what I needed out of thin air. It's that childlike desire for super powers. It's never gone away.
Yogani has implied that siddhis are incidental along the path. I'm going to put forth another opinion that siddhis are, in fact, instrumental to enlightenment, both individually and collectively. I'm still in 100% agreement that joy is the greatest siddhi of all, but I believe that the subsidiary abilities will work to enrich and enhance the quality of joy being experienced by all. It's not difficult to comprehend. It's such a simple trajectory to imagine.
Google defines instrumental as "serving as an instrument or means in pursuing an aim or policy".
If I am pursuing the aim of ecstatic bliss, an outpouring of divine love, and stillness in action...doesn't it make complete sense that I should utilize all instruments at my disposal, especially the ones that promote effortlessness and non-violence? If I could float through the air and zoom through space, why would I need to continue revving up a motor that burns through fossil fuels that get ripped up from the ground in an extremely harsh manner?
I think it's just a matter of time. We're in a certain stage. We want the full experience of cruel limitations, unrefined living, hardship and suffering.
As we exhaust our desire for friction, the frictionless becomes more appealing. From friction to frictionless...that is the way, I dare say.
The higher power is in us.